The mother of the Kahui twins, Macsyna King, says she was painted as a monster after the deaths of her baby boys.
In a report made public on Wednesday, Coroner Garry Evans said there was "not a skerrick of evidence" Ms King was at home at the time three-month-old Chris and Cru were fatally injured in 2006.
The traumatic and fatal brain injuries suffered by the twins happened while they were in the sole care and custody of their father Chris Kahui, Mr Evans found.
Ms King told Campbell Live that while she's not the world's best mother, she loved her sons and would do anything to protect her children.
"I've been painted as a monster, somebody who didn't give a damn, who paid no attention," she said.
"I loved my children. I just find it really hard to be able to express that love I have for my twins, for my sons, while with the very same hand they're also dead."
After Mr Kahui was acquitted of the twins' murders following a trial at the High Court in Auckland in 2008, Ms King said many people blamed her for her sons' deaths.
"Chris was found not guilty so it must be you Macsyna," she said.
"These words have been said to me. I've read them on news feeds on Facebook. I've read scathing taunts on Facebook. I've heard this from extended family members who've had... it yelled at them because people out there in the public know I'm related to them."
She said she has always helped police with their investigations into the deaths of the twins.
"I spoke to them two days after my sons were buried. I went with my lawyer and we gave at least 26 pages of a statement of evidence that I've never changed to this day."
In his report, Mr Evans said Ms King had no motive to kill her own children, while Mr Kahui's evidence on his care of the twins was "unreliable, conflicting and, on many occasions, untrue".
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